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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

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hmm... i'd like to say tt bfore i start writing... today's entry will be a happy one frm me after this flood of sadness and sorrows..and tt today is one of the best days ive had in a long time!....and today's entry will be slightly longer than usual..

today, is teacher's day!... wow, the best time of the yr for the last 2 yrs when i was in sec skul..cuz for the past 2 yrs of my time in sec skul.. teacher's day was a day when we will put up a performance for our dear teachers.. teacher in sec skul are diff frm those in poly.. no matter how much they scold u and all but then they will alwaez show their care and concern for u.. and even being graduated for yrs.. the teachers can still rmb ur name... but in poly they hardly noe ur name.. all have to refer to the paper..so, then.. tis yr is no diff, the prefects TRIED to put up a performance for the teachers.. but i must say i tink they failed... cuz it was a mess.. my predictions exactly.. i already noe tt they were gonna screw up.. ok, though i have to give credit for the effort and bravery.. its not easy standing in front of sooo many ppl and act...also, i don tink its wholey their fault.. it was the AVA's fault too!.. their mics and stuff were useless.. resulting in the whole event to be a mess.. frm beginning to end... then after the whole tink, i had a lil talk with them to say their mistakes and all.. ok.. they listen.. it was a messed-up production but they listened..

for today, i met up with irya to go back skul and then meet the rest in skul.. there werent many ppl but the ones frm jjc.. were reali early.. but they had to leave early too cuz they had class at 1.. the moment we went into skul the first teacher i noticed was none other than, MRS GOHH!!!.. my "mother"... she was teaching the sec one class lit.. haha.. then e moment i was there the class were "chanting"my name.. and clapping.. soo embarrassing.. but then they bcame my fav class.. after talking to mrs goh, we left and said gdbye to the class ppl and they said the loudest gdbye ive heard in a long time!.. to all of us.. then elaine l. said now their her fav class as well.. haha..there were onli a few ppl as most of them came later... and i tink they came in a bus or sometink.. cuz u can see a steady streamline of ex-qss ppl!.. haha.. cool!.. they were quite alot.. bout 2-3 classes full??... hmm.. ok, but then yana wasnt there... aaww.. the person ive not seen for SUCH a long time wasnt ther.. but then they told me she had test so she cant come.. ;(
anyways, most of them came frm 403/2004...hmm.. yeah and we were all out.. looking for teachers after teachers.. and boy, did we see alot!.. haha.. and guess wat?.. EVERY teacher tt saw me... asked bout my hair!.. haha... well, i noe its curly.. but then i didn go for perming or neither am i wearing a wig!.. hahahah... lol!..if i could,id like to rebond and they say i went to perm.. haha.. ok, anyways, it WAS REALI NICE being able to see my teachers again!.. they were reali nice to me when i was in skul..and they alwez just reali nice!..haha...it was also reali great being able to meet fharid and irya.. cuz last time i spent alot of time being with them cuz we alwaez had sometink like skit or dance on.. haha.. yeah, they are reali great!.. i also, met bernard, nurul,zee,raihanah, jeffrey, magdalene, melissa, bernice, tiffany, spencer, syahir.. and many many many more!.. haha.. it was like a family gathering for us... and i was reali looking forward to meet them there.. haha.. and they all looked great!.. haha...

also, i was going around the skul looking for my frens in skul and all.. and saying hi, giving hi-5s and showing some love...esp, the classes tt i took care of.. they were all like my younger bros and sistas.. haha.. they are reali nice ppl... and i did see them.. they were like hi-5s after hi-5s... haha.. well, tts normal... lol.. esp, being in the skul where hugging is a common sight and a norm.. haha...esp, with the sec 4s.. hugging is like a handshake tt normal ppl give.. but then hugs is a better way of showing not onli concern but love(frenship)...and so, if u go to QSS or meet QSS ppl..don be shocked if they come up to u and sudd give u a hug!.. haha..

i met mrs goh, mdm low, mr low, ms lim, cikgu k, mr ben,mr khoo..... and alot alot alot more!.. haha..i met sooo many of my old frens!... whom i miss dearly!.....yana... u werent there.. missed u much gal.... wished u were there.... nas!.. i met u!... finally!... missed u so much too!.. and finally saw u.. farhanah too!..

anyways, today has been a real great day for me!... and tis has been a reali nice addition to change the bad days ive had soo far.... and im reali glad im in QSS.. cuz the ppl in QSS are reali great and fun... and the ppl who are now ex-QQS!.. i missed the yr 2004 batch of ppl!!.. i reali reali feel we were the best, the most enjoyable, most fun, most frenly, most huggable!...

wat ever it is.... i miss u guys alot.. and today has reali made feel happier...thnx!..

(left) fharid, albert, philip and irya!..nice!..
(bottom-left) mandy, taufiQ and lynn!! missed them!
(bottom) grp pic of eng band 2 with our dearest mrs "ancient" Goh!..wat a nice pic!..
(bottom most-left) fharid and the PIMPS!!
(bottom most right) lynn,mandy, lainey and nazI!!

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Sunday, August 28, 2005

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in this past wk... i haven been writing cuz there is just sooo much tt has been happening which me myself cant explain...i mean its sometink tt could affect my greatly but im not sure of tis.. cuz i don wan to make stupid assumptions!.. tt could destroy everytinK!... i was also reali reali reali sad and down and out this wk!.. but then at least i had someone to accompany me almost everyday and esp during the days when i was at the extreme lowest!... and tt person is jamal.. jamal has been reali supportive and helpful thruout tis period of time.... and he was there when i reali reali needed someone to talk to..as there were days when i just couldnt concentrate on my studies and just felt like breaking down..and he was there...to listen to my stupid talks and all.. and as a great fren... i reali appreciatte tt!...thnk u jamal!..even though in skul i might appear normal and happy..but i can tell u im not... im just wandering and feeling lost inside my heart.. and my mind is also wandering in search of an answer... an answer to all this misery and sadness... and i hope ill concentrate a while more just after my exams... GOD, pls help...also, i noe tt i now no longer can see her as our common module has ended.. and now im double sad...nowadays im reali feeling tt sadness and a bucket full of unhappiness is setting upon me... and i reali hope tt someone out there can make me feel better...otherwise, ill feel hopeless and lost...i need someone to hold for now.. im in serious need of some cheering up... and i noe inside me..onli one person can fill this emptiness and unhappiness in my heart...

*peace out*
this has been the worst wk of my entire life!...i reali need u to be there for me...i need answers to tis misery... i need someone to hold... and i gotta stay bold...

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Monday, August 22, 2005

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today...its one of those days tt u wish u can change...today was the last day for my cats class.. oh my god! its reali sad cuz im more comfortable with the mates and now we are much closer and now the module is over and now we wont be able to see each other.. during the first day of cats class no one talked to anyone and we were alwaez making fun of mr yong !..haha.. but then he is alwaez soooo patient!!.. i reli feel that he is a damn nice lecturer! in fact he oso alwaez make us laugh and all.. haha.. he is reali fun!.. they alwaez say gd tinks don last!... and i hope someday they will change the phrase.. cuz we were starting to reali enjoy the class now and now we have to be separated.. i mean like aiyah.. i just love my cats class alot!!!!!.....and worst! the person im gonna miss the most is her!.. i got to noe her in cats class and for the past few wks i accidentally meet her and we will go to skul together and all..even today i went to skul with her... but now... its over.. *sigh* im now in the library and reminiscing all the laughter we had in cats class and all...and i reali felt like crying..... cuz i tink im gonna miss the class alot!... and i dono how i will be able to separate frm my own class!.. next yr.... omg!.. i don wan to tink bout it!... then just now outside the coop shop we were like saying gdbyes after gdbyes and it was a reali sad tink to do!... i HATE GDBYES!!!!!! i hate it !!... i hated when i had to say gdbye to my band members last yr!.. i hated when i had to say gdbye to my classmates last yr!.. i hated when i had to say gdbye to my hanggies!.. i hated to say gdbye to my grandma when she passed away!!... I HATE GDBYES!...how i wished the class was longer and we can spend more time together!.. i had to put on a smile otherwise they will tink wat lah... but inside i was reali sad... cuz parting is such sweet sorrows!..esp with her!... *sighz*... also, i'd like to clarify.. even though me and the rest may seem reali mean and fude to Mr Yong CH.. we tink tt u are the best man!!.. haha.. u are sooo patient... and reali helpful and i tink im speaking on behalf of the others.....i am reali gonna miss u all!!!...... CATS CLASS T104 RAWKS!!....take care y'all!... AND ALSO TO MY PROJECT TEAM INITIAL!.. WEI LUNG, EVELYN, AMRI, K.K AND MYSELF!...U GUYS ARE SIMPLY THE BEST!...THNX EVERYTINK!.. DOING THE PROJECT WITH U GUYS HAVE BEEN A BLAST FOR ME!!..AND EVENTUALLY WE DID FINISH THE PROJECT AND EVEN MAKE A GD ONE IN FACT!..

*peace out*
i wish i could turn back time.. turn back to times tt were meaningful and loved!...
reali i am gonna miss it alot.. cuz wat time has taken away frm me can nv be replaced..and moving on is harder than it seems....

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Thursday, August 18, 2005

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woah...i tink im seeing her more often now man... i men like i went to skul with her again!..haha. but then this time she didnt sit next to me.. she didnt see me lah... then when we got off the bus she said how come i took the bus after her... tts y she didnt see me and all...hahhaa...cute... ayways, the day was like normal.. i came a lil late yesterday but we learnt alot of new stuff yesterday...haha.. also, me and lung-man-cum-timon went for scc.. its been sooolong since we went for scc... at first we thought of quitting u noe..wei lung was getting bored of it.. but then yesterday there was some activity going on... so, it was fun!.. haha... lol... there was this former scc president teaching us how to sing and all.. and it was cool.. haha.. i was soo scared when they asked me to sing.. and guess wat song?? happy bdae song!...haha.. and i felt like dyin.. haha.... i have stage fright lah...even though ive perform upteen times in QSS.. i just dono y i still have it... i reali like to get away frm it man.. it reali spoils everytink man... i love to sing.. but then when ppl ask me to sing i will alwaez do it horribly.. ok, the when the instructor sang.. i told my frens ive got a fren who can sing a celine dion number and pull it off.. the rite note and all.. haha.. and tts irya man!..haha.. ok, so, then i reached hm at bout 10+??... and my uncle and aunt were there... haha.. lol.. ok, tt i wont go into.. otherwise ill bore myself to death!..haha...on the whole... the day was fun!..meeting her is alwaez nice!.... and it wa the onli scc day tt i enjoyed!.. haha....oh, and btw, i reali miss going out... watching movies and stuff... esp with yana and syaz and nas and kumar and muthu!.... i miss u guys!...lol...its been long since ive even meet kumar who is like in my skul!...where the hell u go man!.. haha..

*peace out*

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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

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hmm..today i went o skul late.. haha.. but nvm, i din noe we were supposed to wear long-sleeved shirt today..raj, mael and clement oso din wear long-sleeve shirt.. haha.. ok, moreover, i din expect today to be today!.. wat am i talking bout?.. ok, we did arc-welding today!... omg!!... IT IS SCARRY!!...haha... cuz we had to weld sometink.. like burning or melting somethink at reali HIGH tempt!.. and the tool we used omg, it was like the ones those construction worker use!... and we had to "suit" up, in aprons, gloves, sleeves, and foot protectors!.. it was all leather!.... and thus it was FREAKING hot!... like being in an oven!... so, we were supposed to weld a piece of metal.. and the welding tool was a temperature of 6000 degrees!... we were scared as hell!... and then there was sparks!.. ans the light given out can literally make u BLIND!!...then have the mask!..uv protected!... 3 layers!... oh my... can u imagine tt???...all of us were reali scared to make any mistakes... cuz a short circuit could have killed us!!... and i mean killed!.. haha... the gloves were thick, but then if u were to even TAP the workpiece after welding and putting aside for 30mins!...ur hands can still burn even with the gloves!... and the way the instructor said it made tinks worst!.. haha...scarryy...but fun!.. haha...stayed back with jamal to do some work.. he helped out with my online assignments... haha...omg, wait bfore i forget!... i found out tt a Queensway student got into an accident!.. and im not sure.. but either he's dead or he's paralysed!!.. oh my god!!!... another one!... there was a gal who died after being hit by a truck!... sadly she was onli sec 3.. and i tink i took care of her class bfore!.. tts y ppl!... bcareful when ur on the rd!!...take care alwaez!... tinks can happen...anytime anywhere!... don forget tt....haha..

*peace out*

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Monday, August 15, 2005

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wat a GREAT day today.... first tinking tt it'll be wonderful enuff tt im going back to skul-QSS.. for some prefect's tink... they asked me, irya and fharid to help them with a skit... haha.... hmm.. and i thought they had an idea of wat to do!... but was i surprised!... omg, i don tink they can make it.. and they called us on the last min!...haha... but nvm.. we'll try to help as much as possible!.. haha.. they had a storyline and all!but wat they are doing isnt the way me, irya and fharid would do tinks!.. haha.. i mean like we do witout scripts and we try to let everyone make their one idea as script.. tt is better cuz then the students will tend to want to be more involved.. instead of, making them say wat u want them to say.. they got no freedom to add and subtract... and tts y they wont turn up!.. haha.. and discipline is very important.. otherwise they will all be ignorant and wont want to do it... and for this particular skit they recruited sec 1s.. usually irya and me wouldnt recruit sec 1s cuz they are still very naive and young!.. haha... but then there was an exception for last yr.... ka hao was rather close to us... me irya and fharid.. and when somethin went wrong we made him the lead... and he made us PROUD!... and until now... i tink he is one great younger brother of ours!..haha... we've been doing skits and stuff for the past 2 yrs... haha.. in QSS and it has been successful... and this yr after we went out, it was like the teachers wanted them to put up a performance..so, instead of doing it for the love of it.. they are being forced.. so, there is the mistake... anyways, we had super great actors, dancers, music makers and alL!... ahaha.... i tink my batch of ppl were the most talented!.. and besides that, we can choreograph dances, direct skits, produce skits, put up a musical performance and etc etc!... we did sooo many tinks when we were there,... ahaha... and tts y i love my QSS.... i love to get involved.. i love to be given responsibilities... haha... tts just me... hehe...then, me, irya and din, we went to fharid's mom's shop and ate... alot!..i was so damn full i couldnt walk!.. haha... i drank 3 glasses of drinks!.. omg.. i couldnt believe myself!..anyways, going back today reali made me reminisce and recall the old times!... the times of being in sec skuL!.... I MISS IT SOOO MUCH!!.... i MISS my frens in sec skul!... i miss being called every min!.... i miss being scolded!... i miss being yelled at and yelled to!..haha.. i miss doing duties!.. i miss staying back and doing dances, skits, going for band!.. i miss going for prefect's meeting!.. i miss working together with my teachers to improve the skuL!... BASICALLY I MISS EVERYTINK!!....

and tinking this day couldnt get any better.... i went to skul with her today!.. haha.. she sat in front of me and we talked!.. haha... ;) and now i have got her msn!... (not saying anymore le-hehe) haha... oh, btw, ive done my presentation for my cats grp!.. haha.. and it was ok i guess.. hahah.. it did went as i planned!... haha.. except for the skit!.. hehe... got some mistakes here and there... but it was gd... haha...

ok, I LOVE TODAY!!!!.....
I LOVE TODAY!!...
ahaha

*peace out*

this is my avenue

Friday, August 12, 2005

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today i tink is one of those tiring days.. aiyah, but then wat to do.. haha.. still have to go for classes.. haha.. raj, clement and siyan were late for engmec lesson.. haha. by an hr!.. wow, i don tink i will still come if i was that late!.. haha..anyways, as i thought nothing more can happen today i saw her!.. ahaha.. ;) and she talked to me bout a project..so nice talking to her!.. u r special!...i'd like to talk to her more... haha.. anyways, i oso went for prayers today!.. ahah.. usually ill skip it... cuz its reali tiring to got for prayers.. esp, if we are going at the one at commonwealth mosque.. then have to take the bridge!.. omg, reali cannot tahan!.. haha... but then its nice going there cuz got alot of frens i noe frm there.. ahaha... then can talk and all... but the journey is damn far and tiring.. but worth it.. cuz i miss my sec skul so much.. even though i enjoy poly life and all but then i still miss my frens in the sec skul.. and watever we do in sec skul is fun!.. ahaha.. there was so much to do there.. but in poly damn stressed!.. in 3 wks i having exams!.. and worst, u cannot fail the exams in poly otherwise u repeat.. and it is not nice to repeat!.. not fun at all!.. u get separated frm ur class as they got separate time table frm ur frens.. and i tink tt ill be LOST if i were to be separated frm them!.. ahah.. in my class 1A2.. all of us are reali thnkful and happy that we got in this class.. wanna noe y?.. cuz it is the best class in NP!.. ive said it many times and again!. but it is true.. i mean like even jamal said tt he tinks they send him to the wrong class cuz he belong more with my class... he enjoys being with my class more than his own!.. he alwaes say my class is like damn fun!...haha... and i tink soo too!... all of us like got magnet lidat.. one laugh everyone laughs and when one "ponteng" all oso ponteng!.. heheh....then teacher oso dono wat to say when almost half the class not there.. hahaha...i reali reali am gonna miss this ppl when we get put into the respective sub courses!... reali i am gonna miss them!.. they are GREAT ppl!.. they make me feel comfortable being around them.. the feeling i get when im with my hanggies!.. haha... tts y.. and i tink i reali gonna miss them bad!... y must nice tinks end early!... i love sec skul and now its over... i love hanggin out with my hanggies during the hols and now tts over!. i love being in this class and now its almost over...Y? Y?... i don understand!.. well, lets just hope tt we will ALWAEZ keep in touch man 1A2!... u guys rock!.......

*peace out*

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Wednesday, August 10, 2005

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woohOoo!.. Happy National Day Spore!.. i noe its kinda late... but then even though im not reali reali ken bout being a s'porean... but there are tinks tt i love on the other hand... haha.. and i tink yesterday's ndp was not soo bad!...my most fav part of the ndp is usually the passing out parade and the FIREWORKS!.. tis yr's celebrations also involved the parade of army vehicles!.. it was soo cool!.. haha...it reali reminds me of the times when we used to celebrate ndp in sec skul... i noe..y am i still blabbering bout missing sec skul and all.. but then i reali do miss it.. i miss the fun ndp celebrations we usually have!.. one of those days when i can just bcome crazy!.. can sing and shout and cheer all i want!.. haha... and moreover.. i enjoy doing my prefectorial duties during ndp celebrations.. haha... its alwaez hectic and i love taking up a challenge like making ppl sit and all... i have my ways....haha.. and it is fun!.. no matter how much i screamed at the students they still rmb me.. as a senior... tts reali sweet..haha..lol..ok, anyways, i reali missed singing the traditional ndp songs with my frens!.. haha.. we would just go crazy singing the songs!..hehe.. ok well, once again!.. Happy Bdae S'pore!.....and to all my frens!..missed u guys... mayb we can go back for teacher's day!...k??...

ok, today nothing much happened EXCEPT tt i met her again..woohOoo!...

hmm -special announcement-... pritipal!.. if ur reading tis entry or even my blog...i'd like to noe y have i not been seeing u on msn for the past few wks?!.. did u block me or sometink?.. i don tink its possible tt of all the many hrs i spend on the com u din even sign in a single min??....and ur using laptop for god's sake!..so i'd like a lil explaination from u?...y the hell (i dono if im over-exagerating) are u avoiding me or sometink?.. im ur fren priti...if u still consider me as one....i dono. if ur reading tis.. get back to me... asap..

*peace out*
one of those days where u just appreciate life and still living it makes it even better!...

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Sunday, August 07, 2005

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hmm..today i thought tt i will be staying at hm and do nothing as usual.. but then syaz called me out for a while at bout 1... she wanted to meet as she is feeling down and sad... and so i met her at bout 3...the first tink i saw when i met her was tears in her eyes...i asked y and she said something happened... and i knew for a moment she could reali use some company...so i stayed with her for a while... and managed to cheer her up a lil...and im glad i did tt... its the least i could do for my fren... a while later.. yana came.... and it was more lively...when she came.. its been sometime since ive seen them..so it was a nice lil gathering at starbucks... haha.. lol... we returned hm at bout 6 cuz i needed to meet my mom at tiong bahru as i wanted to buy some food stuff at the pasar malam.. haha... lol.. and i bought alot of food indeed!!... haha... lol... btw, yesterday watched some malay debate on whether blog is a private space.. well, im going with the opposition as i tink blog is not a private space.. even though im using one... ill explain next time... syazz... alwaezz stay strong.. and take care... ill pray for u.....itll be ok...

*peace out*
im with u syazz....

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Saturday, August 06, 2005

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hmm.. basically i didnt do anytink today.. was resting and slping the whole day..both my sisters went to watch charlie and the chocolate factory and btw which they said was nice.. well, of course they will say its nice.. they are "charlie and choco fact." fan... duh.. well, they went oso cuz my sis had one free tix and so onli one had to pay for it.. haha.. ok, anyways, today.. my mom cried....cuz she was reminiscing bout the times she had taking care of my late grandma.. and me trying to be strong and all.. tried hard to hold back my tears.. I HATE TO SEE MY MOM CRY!! well, cuz i love her alot.. and to see her cry breaks my heart into pieces..and makes me feel bad for being a son who can do nothing..and tt was y i studied reali hard for my o levels last yr... i reali didnt wanna disappoint her....cuz she has given me so much.. given so much to put me thru skul after skul..paid for me bills after bills..some mths my bills reach up to $190+.. for ur info, the ave amount to raise a full grown child is $1 million....mayb more or less...but then it is still alot of $$ to raise me alone... and wat about my sis and all..she's alwaez said..."i don expect much frm u.. but i wan u to do well in ur studies"...moreover, after realising tt i did badly for my mid-yr i studied more than i did for the past 3 yrs..haha.. stayed up late every nite to revise and made it thru prelims..wat a relieve..*phew*..then for o levels.. i onli studied slightly cuz most learnt during my prelims period..guess wat?..i did well for my standard..haha.. and the first person i told was my MOM!.. even though she din sound excited and all.. but then i noe tt she was jumping for joy for me inside..haha.. and tt was enuff for me, but i broke my hp screen on tt day cuz i sat on it..hehe..anyways,which on/daughter in the rite state of mind would feel guilty letting down their parents..she came hm today telling me tt her frens at work are like making fun of her and all... and i told her y the hell(not my exact choice of word) are they saying all tt.. then she was like sad and stuff.. and i felt reali pitiful for her.... im reali frustrated tt there are ppl who is out there to make fun of other ppl... i mean ill understand if they are young teens and all.. but then they are full grown adults.. and i feel like going there and KICKING their fucked up ass!..and don try me.. if u tink i wont do it.. i tink ur wrong..... for making my mom feel shameful and making her feel bad bout herself... cuz i tink she is the GREATEST mom i can ever ask for...she's the most caring person in the world.. very very patient esp, if u have children like me and my sisters who is like a handful!.... alwaez tinking and putting us bfore herself... im alwaez complaining im sick and all.. but then its been such a loong time since ive seen her sick or complaining she is.. she's just the strongest person ive ever met...i will alwaez love u, mom.....

i love u mom......

*peace out*
-rise and fall-

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Friday, August 05, 2005

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wed 3/8/05-i was late for skul and thus took a cab to skul.. wasting my $$ onli.. damn it!..haha.. but then i don wanna be late either...haha... hmmm... wat else.. had a lil misunderstanding with ismael... dono lah.. accusing me of being a big loud-mouth cuz i told teacher he wasnt there and resulted in him being marked absent..but then he was absent lol.... so, was quite fucked up tt day.... not so happy with wat he said.. i din even noe i wasnt supposed to say....watever man... some editing here.. hehe.. i oso went for ndp dinner at the ulu pandan cc after meeting at syaz's place..haha.. lol.. and there was reali alot of food down there.. ok, i mean like normal serving but alot of "stages"..haha..i was lucky tt bernard came man.. haha.. otherwise ill be the onli guy there except for syaz's dad..cuz, onli syaz, me, bernard, yana and NADIA came!.. haha..and there were sooo many reali """hot""" gals...*ahem* old ladies.......hahah.. and they were the hostess.. can u imagine being served by a 40++ woman tightly clad.. in white... they sure were no white angel...ahahahah...anyways, it was nice.. the experience and all..and i got to see mr vivian balakrishnan...which, btw, whom bernard said "good-looking and quite handsome".. ive just got no comment to make on tt.. haha.. but he was cool.. haha..

thurs 4/8/05-hmm.. wasnt late!!.. and i was REALI REALI glad i wasnt!!.....ahahah....u wanna noe y?..haha.. cuz i saw HER!!..i mean like she was on the bus!!!!!!.... omg!!... i was soooo shocked!..haha... cuz at first i was sitting alone.. then at the bus stop at Sterling Rd..i saw her going up the bus!!.. ahaha.. at first she din notice me.. but then she eventually saw me and waved at me!.. then she came to me and sat next to me!....haha.. i was dumbfounded for a while...haha... then she started talking to me..hahah... lol...i was happppyyy..... hehe... u understand....she said she was meeting a fren on the bus... but then she wasnt sure where her fren was..then guess where her fren was?... she was sitting rite in front of us!!..haha.. and guess wat... her fren was my pri skul fren!...hahahaha.... lol..such coincidence....ok, i shant continue any further just in case... haha.....(p.s the story is a lil longer!..)....anyways, ok, after skul i met jamal at the library.. but then guess who was with him?.. nurul!.. hehe... how long has it been since ive seen her?!...i tink its forever lol!... nurul u look pretty gd now with ur hair and all gal!.. haha.. nicely done... haha..we were like laughing and laughing at jks and stuff adn making noise in the library.. lucky nv kena "saman"..and ahem.. nurul was looking for pics of soccer hunks on the internet!..hehe.... and she was going googoo-gaga over them... hahaaha...typical gals.... hehe... no lah.. jkjk....and it was nice catching up with u man nurul!!...haha.. see ye around skul again next time... anyways, then we went back hm after tt lil meeting...btw, as usual the mtprac teacher gave me a hard time today.. was insulting me and trying to crack LAME jokes which no one understood!.. lame ass!...i hate u... losert*h...

fri 5/8/05 -i skipped my first 2 engmec lessons just now.. all cuz my boxers was wet!.. i din dry any of them!... haha... then i was very frustrated... i get angry over small tinks easily...haha... tts just me... anyways, i came to skul onli to find out tt onli 10 ppl came for engmec!..haha..so i wasnt alone!.. yeah!... lol...and we spent the whole day playing need for speed!.. such a nice game!... also, the whole day my class was talking bout our new "icon-cum-motivator" the 'White Angel' she is someone frm my lecture class..sounds soo holy and perfect?.. haha... she's reali holy sh*t gd looking and all and the guys were drooling while the gals were dreading(they din even bothered).. haha.. esp today she was wearing totaly white!!.. and thus the white angel(which btw, she reali looked gd in) came about...but then i guess she alwaez lookgd in skul cuz she alwaez dress up as if she was going clubbing or just came back frm one.. haha..and a certain person/s were imagining if it were to rain... and.... u get it... haha...

[[and omg.. one more tink....i forgot my mom's bdae is today!!...haha... lol.. some son i am!!.... forgetting his mom's own bdae!!..might as well kill myself...haha.. anyways, my mom is 41 tis yr..urghh.. she is getting older... i don wan her to grow old... i love her to much....anyways, Happy 41th 'Belated-By-A-Few-Mins' Birthday Mom!!!..... -i love u- ]]

so basically tt was the summary of wat happened.. i might forget some "events" but i sure did rmb Thursday!...hehehehe..

*peace out*
ur special

this is my avenue

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

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was almost reali late for skul today and i hate it if i were to be late during a fucked up teacher's lesson.. wat im talking bout is my mtprac teacher for the one of the modules im having now.. he's reali very damn dono how to describe lah.. i mean like i tink he doesnt noe how to teach at all!.. and he alwaezs "kau-pei" us lol... damn it...don reali like him...

well, the rest of the day was like any other day.. go for classes have fun and go hm.. but then im still having cough so im not reali up u noe... i was quite subtle and a lil inactive... of course im sick wat do u expect.. anyways.. today on the whole was ok!haha..

but then today i went hm with jamal and its such a surprise man!..haha..i met him after skul today..to get some songs frm his laptop!..cuz he took ALOT of songs frm his fren!.... 3 GB full od songs in fact!.. it was like 700+ songs... i just din noe where to start looking even.. but then i could onli take a few.. din bring my laptop.. so i onli had my thumbdrive..haha..so i onli took a few songs!.. one of my most fav songs ive been looking for is "caught up-usher" and "sori seems to be the hardest word-blue and elton j"!.. and he had it!.. i was sooo happy man... haha... songs make me happy.. hehe.. anyways.. i finally told jamal tt i am now moving on.. im looking into the phuture and moving on.... no more reminiscing the past!...i reali wanna noe u better....and im gonna try my best!..cuz i reali don wanna regret it anymore.. and jamal was reali supportive of my decision... cuz he reali wanted me to move on.. and tts y sometimes im reali lucky to have them.. but sometimes sadly not....haha... lol.. but thnkful..hahaand yeah bro.. i tink im too thnkful tt im finally going to move on...surprise surprise..but then priti.. thnkx too!.. u were oso reali supportive too!... and id taken ur advice into action.. hopefully when i meet her.. haha.. u too k gal!... go for it!...lol...heheh...

Thankful

when times are low
and there's no show
ill alwaez be reminded of u
taking u thru the nite....
when im feeling down
and my lights go out
i guess there is no better person
to turn to...

chorus:
im reali thnkful
for all uve given me
the times uve pulled for me
and carried me thru
i will alwaez stay
in the times tt we pray
there can nv be
one moment tt is true
such as me and u.......

written:taufiq
arrangement:taufiq
singer:?? me i guess?..
(cant tink of anytink else to continue..when ive got inspiration ill continue k..)hehe..

*peace out*
p.s much happier now..

this is my avenue

Monday, August 01, 2005

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it seems no one cares anymore..
i mean like i have 2 of the bestest buddies in the world.. but it seems to me tt there is no one there for me.. to lend me a listening ear and stuff.. (p.s im reali lucky i have other peeps to listen to my crappy shit!.. syaz, yana, priti [u noe wat im talking bout]... thnx... and the rest... of u guys thnx too...)
firstly.. they hardly call.. and one of them noeing my temper is REALI bad!.. someone made some reali stupid decisions by making me reali angry... and the other?.. trying to make me feel better by talking nice to me?..its not helping man!... y don u guys realise??!!!!!.... i might just be over anytime sooon!!!!! there is no point in continuing our frenship if u guys are lidat!... reali!.. there's no point!..i noe tt ill eventually have to talk to u guys.. cuz u guys are special!.. u guys understand me more than anyone else in the WORLD!.. but then if this continues.. im not sure if tt phrase even exists!.. i mean like.. ive been trying to hide the anger and hatred towards u ppl!!!.. y cant u see tt?!!.. even yana and syaz whom ive onli known onli in sec 3 or 2 understands me better i tink.. u guys cant tell if im angry....if im sad... i tink u wont even notice if i were to die!!..u onli care for and about urself!.. where's tt tink called concern for a fren gone to?.. up ur ass??!!it reali doesnt make sense to me.. i noe.. u can say im complaining and fretting bout tis over and over again... but then u don go thru tis cuz u don reali care!... i do!...i care tt we're slowly drifting away... and i dont wanna tt to happen!... but y cant u show more concern for our frenship?.......
now, im seriously wont and cant be bothered no more...watever u wanna call me.. wanna make fun of me.. insult me?!!... watever.. i cant be bothered... i noe who i am.. and if i noe im not the person u tink i am.. then IM NOT!..but then don act all smart and tink tt u noe me better than myself.. like a certain colleague/fren of mine... who tinks he/she noes me better than myself!...
anyways, u guys reali shuld tink bout this... oh, wait!!!... u don even bother to go to my blog site to read my entries... so, nvm, i'll make a special invitation for u next time k!.. with greeting cards and red carpet and all.. and ill INVITE u to read my entries k?....GO TO HELL!.. wat makes u tink tt if u wont bother i will???!!!..... fine, ill end tis entry here... short and sweet??... wat do u noe?... bye..

*PISSED...AGAIN..*
not in a good mood!...don add to it!... FUCK OFF!..

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hey, hmm.. if there's a name for obsession for dying hair.. i tink ive got it.. i mean like.. i just dyed my hair again today!... for the hmm...5/6th time this yr!.. aiyah, i dono lah.. not tt im grateful tt god has given me hair or all tt.. but then im just trying to make it better...ive heard frm a religious teacher bfore... it is ok, to colour facial hair as it symbolizez the person's strength and stuff.. well, i might have put it wrongly.. but wat i noe is tt its not bad.. its gd...haha.. anyways, i was indecisive on wat colour i shuld do... in the end i stuck to my "comfort" the bright shades of brown.. i reali wanted to do BLONDE though.. but then i had to get a second opinion on tt.. and i asked my best bud yana... and she said.. it might not do.. enuff for me to decide...hahaha... lol.. i trust their taste.. if its bad... they'll say its bad.. it normal for all of us... not being sarcastic.. but being truthful and honest...haha.. well, anyways, i noe tt dying ur hair alot of times might cuz damage to ur hair and wat not.. and not too gd in the long run.. but then.. im just thnkful to god...tt im still ok.. *alhamdullilah*.. haha.. i mean im oso afraid if anytink were to happen and ill regret doing all this vanity faire tink.. but then *insyaallah* can...hehe...btw, im still sick guys....haha.. *cough*

*peace out*