hmm, k.. ive to admit.. im not an avid blogger.. haha.. see the last date on my last entry was like 2nd March.. hahah..its more than a mth since ive updated.. well, now im here again.. anyways.. im quite bored of my blog skin.. i need HELP!.. i dono how to change blog skin.. hahaha.. just waiting for yana to help me..

but anyways i don think anyone is realli interested to read the boring life of me, t.fiQue.. im guessing they're better off reading other blogs.. but i just wanna get some things off my mind.. so here's the place usually ppl go to clear their mind bout stuff.. even though other people can read or wad.. heck.. do i care.. hahah..

this past mth ive been getting very annoyed and easily aggitated by anyone and everyone.. esp a few of my frens... see how i said frens not clique.. (clique is the REGULAR group of frens u HANG out with) dono lal.. just gOt one make species making me very mad sometimes.. and not only one lal... there are more homosapiens making me fucking pissed sometimes.. personally lal.. and this applies to my supposedly closest of close buddies.. like i tink im the only fucking one TRYING to make the effort of TRYING to get us together to go out.. either they don wanna do wat u wanna do or they just plain annoying that they cant be bothered to go out with u.. HALO?!!!! ur talking bout me here lei.. u tink i can give a fucking care to the world?!.. having enuff probs myself u noe.. and the best part.. they ALWAEZ wan to hang or go to places NEARER to their place.. the reason? better, no ez link card.. so easier can go home.. then im the foolish arse who actually goes there to meet this FRENS of mine.. omg, wad was i tinking. then if nv meet up.. they go blabbering about how they miss u, how u nv call them, or how u fucking forget about them.. but im sori to shatter ur dreams, but in reality i TRIED ok! dare u to admit i don TRY to call or i DONT TRY to ask out! fuck off man.. ok, even though there are a few frens who do ask to hang out or wad lal.. and thnks.. realli appreciate those kind of frens sometimes..

sometimes i realli feel pathetic.. i feel alone .. seriously.. i realli feel like ive got no frens sometimes.. i mean.. frens go out rite?.. they hang out.. or something.. sometimes i feel abandoned by my frens lal... some find work oso like nv call when i specifically say bfore hand "call me, go together"..this doesnt apply to only my frens lal... some other parties also lidat.. cant be bothered sometimes.. i mean, ok seriously, nowadays i don tink i have any frens except for one.. cus i don go anywhere, no one ever calls me(mayb some rare ones) and i don realli chat with any of them online.. so tt leaves me with only one real fren i guess.. one whom without fail rain or shine will talk to me... sometimes i feel she is the only fren ive got.. it sounds pathetic.. cus in secondary skul i had loads of frens.. did i change somehow? change to the point that my frens find it an embarrasment to hang wit me?.. i don tink i changed.. but i noe THEY sure did change!..
k, let me ask u all sometink.. does the factor age make u a less fun and a more serious person? i mean like must u be soo serious just cus ur 18? or must u change just cus ur older now? it doesnt make sense sometimes when ppl say, ur so old yet so childish and all..well, u noe sometink? at least im still the same as i was a few yrs ago.. not like some ppl living in denial...

today firdaus, my primary skul close fren, is making a bbq and has asked me to come lal.. and he asked me to bring frens along.. hmm, so i needa call some frens later.. but i noe most of them surely cant make it lal.. so no point calling some.. hahah but if i go alone itll be a lil wierd though, cus he invited his ITE frens and sec skul frens..then ill be alone there.. so im HOPING someone can come along.. haha.. lol..

nth much gonna happen anytime now.. just tt i needa go back skul to install some programming shit for one of the stupid module.. and today is actually my cousin's bdae.. so HAPPY 5TH BDAE LIL CUZ!!.hahah.. lol.. see ya later..

btw, i find tt ngee ann poly system of making us rank and choose IS modules is utterly ridiculous! first they ask us to rank our IS modules and "lifted" our HOPES high up.. cus like we will be going like oh, wad u choose?.. i chose french, oh no, u chose spanish?.. spanish is fun!, french is cool!.. u get wad i mean?.. we'll be talking lidat... these ppl in the skul are so smart at getting us all pumped up at wanting to get sometink WE'RE INTERESTED in.. BUT somehow, the system screws man.. then like most of the people i noe DIDNT get wad they wanted.. but instead, they got some stupid module called entrepeneurship and the law!!.. HALO?! do i look like i wanna take sometink i can hardly pronounce?! wth.. and the other one, and the MORE interesting sounding one is Science and Technology and the World.. and tt is the more interesting sounding one u noe.. can u imagine wad's the worst one?!.. wth lal.. now i seriously cant be bothered..i personally feel they got a stupid system of doing things.. they wanna be all wireless and all computerised and stuff.. well reality check, its not working?! hahaha.. mayb u guys should try to do sometink bout it.. hahah..

hmm, im getting more emo nowadays, cus i think cus we talk much less.. i got no mood to come online tt early now.. like i come in very late sometimes.. like 9 plus.. considering that i alwaez come in like 6 plus or 7 a few mths back.. hahahas.. but in any case, i still .........................
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till i write again.. take care yall.. bye

*peace out*

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