this is my avenue

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

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GOSH!!!... what a start of the new skul term!!...
sucks man... firstly, i thought my class starts at 9 am... so i happily came skul..i left late, so fearing being late, i took a cab to skul.... quite happy with the driver, frenly and he drove realli fast.. so gd.. ok, reached skul.. happily walked up 3rd storey.. ok, WALKED up.. and i reach class, and FUCKING REALISED that it was another class!... my class starting at 10 am!!.. WHAT THE FUCK...

k then nvm, pissed, very pissed.. then went to the lib to hang out while waiting for class to start.. decided to have breakfast in the lib la..like eat the hotdog bread and drink bubble tea..
k, but here's the thing, i CANNOT have morning breakfast.. my stomach's NOT used to it.. i dont usually eat in the morning usually bfore 9 am.. i mean eat heavily la.. if not later get stomach ache..but being the smart ass i am, i thought that since these past 2 wks ive been eating reali early, i prolly could la.. so ate 2 hotdog breads and bubble tea.. and ill live to regret later...

went to class.. 2 hrs, then lunch, went to canteen 2 la.. had western food.. ok nvm.. after that go co-op buy water.. go FOOP then like everything went wrong.. my stomach realli painful and stuff.. and couldnt stand it sia.. then i told tt fucker i wanted to go home sick.. then he crap about the project la.. fuck u la.. then i waited for until about 2 pm ask thig to ask for break.. then i CABOT!.. hahas.. waiting for jamal for 4 mins or so seemed like eternity man!.. i was alredy sweating holding back the pain... took a cab... reached home and rested and took some medications..

wad im trying to say is that, damn! today was supposed to be relaxed first day.. but in the end i took cab to and fro.. stupid.. hahas..

hmmm, i kinda enjoy listening to "Move Along" by the All American Rejects.. its a nice song..

Move Along Lyrics
Album :
Move Along
Artist :
The All-American Rejects

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong

Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through[x3]

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

*peace out*
Lesson of the day: ALWAYS check your timetable!!

this is my avenue

Thursday, June 22, 2006

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hmm, went back to skul!!!!..QSS!!!..hahahahs!!.. for bandcamp!!.. lol.. hmm, at first going to step into the skul abit worrying, scary and awkward feeling!.. hahas.. can u imagine tt sia.. me feeling that!.. the only gd thing was that i didnt realli have any troubles with the security guard.. they were nice.. hahas.. new people i think.. new company i guess.. hahas..moreover they prepared my name on a list.. so it was easy to enter.. k so, hmm, at first i was rather skeptical.. didnt noe wad to expect.. after graduating for almost 2 yrs.. and coming back.. isnt exactly a great feeling.. u feel very extra.. very awkward.. hahas.. that was AT FIRST.. hahaha

met elaine and zemin inside.. FYI.. me and elaine goh got looong history of frenship.. hahas.. we've been in the same class since primary one!.. and in sec skul same skul.. but unfortunately diff class.. so i cant nv find it hard to talk to her!!.. since ive known her for soo long!.. hahas.. practically known her all my life!.. prolly hmm a gd 11 yrs!!.. and ive enjoyed every sec of knowing u elaine!.. hahas.. ur cool gal.. and NEVER underestimate her capabilities.. hahas.. she's a great woman..

k so, met elaine ane zemin .. and hmm, things just started there.. started with my usual antiques!.. playing and fooling around.. i miss my frens... seeing them realli brings me alot of joy and laughter, etc etc!.. esp my sec skul peeps.. in a way, i kinda miss them.. somemore like band people, are the people i usually see in skul.. and being in a cca realli brings u closer to the people in it.. so, all's gd when in comes to band.. so then, a while later yunshan came.. from home, nothing to do so go lor.. like her thinking.. hahas.. so met her, i also usually meet her in np.. even thought she schools in nyp.. lol.. hahas.. hmm, then, they had a practice session and lunch after that, there was a little mix up during lunch.. here and there, and all's settled..paul and shuying came during lunch.. so we had lunch, but wasnt enuff, i didnt eat since 730 the nite bfore.. tts my cut-off time.. its an oprah diet thingy.. dont laugh yall.. k, so then, still hungry, phillip yap was still at mac.. so paul called him help us buy in.. so , i ordered along..after that, went back to bandroom...nth much to do, so phillip brought along a bball.. so hey, we played la!!.. hahas..BBALL lei!!.. hahas.. ive haven been playing anything for sooo long!!.. and sudd playing bball!.. me and paul, having not have PE in poly, felt like going to get heart attack lidat!.. hahas.. lol.. but it was realli nice la.. hahas.. played with phillip's brother and another guy.. i didnt even noe phillip's bro was in qss la.. hahas.. and in band somemore.. thEy look quite alike, so i could tell.. and the same specs.. haha

after bball.. went back to band room.. dilys came around tt time.. from skul.. tts y..so then, chill out a while listen to them horribly doing the songs, the percussions are like not even paying attention la.. didnt even noe wad they were doing.. nvm that, shu ying said she was leaving, and tt was when all the fun started!!.. we started to take pictures!!.. when i start i cant stop!!.. hahas.. so we kept on taking and taking.. hahas..i mean, i wont be seeing them again anytime soon, so better enjoy this moment rite!..then my "crazy-mode" was ON-ed!!!.. hahas... and i started going nuts!.. hahas.. laughing and shouting.. and all that as they say, is HISTORY!!.. i realli had fun, one way or the other!!.. hahas.. THNX to all that came!!.. ill post the pics later on!.. hahas..
when im not so tired ill explain in detail k.. hahas..

k, on to another topic, SINGAPORE IDOL!.. SERIOUSLY, i think Singapore Idol is a real disgrace!!... to the talents in singapore!!.. ok, mayb a few is realli outstanding but then a few realli truly sucks!.. i think the old aunties singing in the toilet sounds better!. and the fact that they made it thru the final 24 tells u how low the calibre of the "aspiring" singers were!!.. but then the one i realli couldnt stand was today's particular contestant, ML or something ( i using initials, so wadever name u inteprete is NOT my problem!).. the one who sang "i turn to you" by christina aguilera..i think the judges MUST be deaf or something cus they must be mad to have said she did a great job!?!? who are they kidding!?? she practically sang like a freaking toad!! all her "high" notes were crap!.. esp the part when she will have to sing a high note at the end, her voice broke!!... and the judges say it was nice.. it was NOTHING compared to christina aguilera.. i just felt like puking after hearing her sing.. she makes C.A look bad la!..i dont even wanna start with the rest of them.. and oh, i seriously think ken lim should stop his "copying simon cowell" style and stop with his nonsensical comments.. seriously, tt guy, is not original.. not smiling, saying all those stupid nasty stuff..its soo SIMON-ISH la.. even a dumb person will realise!.. HALLO.. who are u trying to kidd here?!.. anywhere, the other judges, jacintha should realli try to talk some sense.. sometimes u dont understand wad the heck she is talking..wanna act all "perfect english" judge kinda thing.. doesnt work in a society where SING-lish is a way of life!
k, enuff of SI.. its realli a disgrace sometimes.. compare the idols to the american idol contestants and ull noe wad im talking about..

k, im gonna post some pics.. enjoy.. reading.. hahas.. take care yall.. hahahas.. lol..

this is us!.. just a few of the peeps!..i miss my band!.. and i missed these peeps!!.. =)

my niggas!.. i kinda miss fooling around with them.. phillip in my section for 3/4 yrs.. known paul for the same amount of time and derek was my care-taking class..

aaaww.. going back!!.. paul, yunshan, elaine g and dilys!

elaine g, yunshan, aryani and me.. ahaha.. nice pic..

me and my TUBA peeps!!.. ari, phillip yap, terry and me!!.. hahas.. chill yall!.. hahas..

this is us... elaine, yunshan, shuying, paul and me!.. hahas..

btw, songs of the wk!..

TITLE ARTISTE

Gimme That Chris Brown

Move Along All American Rejects

*peace out*

treasure the times u have with ur frens..

cus time is nv at a stand-still

and ull eventually learn how much uve missed them..

this is my avenue

Saturday, June 17, 2006

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hmm, hi yall..
ok, so i was watching an episode on Oprah, the Lady O herself was with guest stars Jada Pinkett Smith, Venus and Serena Williams... ok, so , hmm, it was about teenage problems.. everything i know that teenagers were going thru was brought up..so then they were discussing about self mutalation in teenagers.. hmm, i guess ive experience this first hand with my frens unfortunately..ive seen the pain and suffering they been thru.. i guess these people are just weak.. because, they only manage to put up a brave front, cutting themselves, in an effort to "solve" their problems.. all the problems will magically "go away" after cutting themselves up.. it doesnt make sense.. i think these people are not strong enuff emotionally to take control of that outburst of sadness or pure emotional distress that is suddenly taking over.. and thus when they cut themselves up, they are not realli there.. their minds is not actually there.. they actually feel the pain, but they keep thinking to themselves that the pain emotionally is more than the physical pain..its all a deceit.. they are only lying to themselves..

and other point they touched on was hmm, mean kids in school or mean people.. k, so this was the theory that the doctor said.. people are mean or treat other people badly because they have insecurities about themselves.. and they might not know it, but somewhere inside, they are feeling insecure about their status and stuff that they have to resort to lowering the self esteem of other people, JUST to raise theirs..and they do this by being mean and stuff like that..moreover, the doctor added that IF the mean person who disses everyone or is mean or nasty or wad is not insecure about themselves, why do they have to act like that.. act in a way that lower other people's self esteem and pride.. i was watching the show closely and i feel its true.. i mean wad she was talking about makes sense!.. makes perfect sense!.. hahas..so, i guess, now, when people diss me or say things about me.. itll just fall on deaf ears.. hahas.. cus now i know that, when they do that, they're just insecure about themselves.. haha... yeahs.. this might just work!.. hahas..

anyways, today, met up with irya, nana, sakina and shaniz.. they were doing some dance.. preparing for some dance.. and irya called me to sit in to one of the sessions.. hahas.. its ok i guess.. i reali realli miss doing dances!!.. haha.. working with irya and nana to create dances for prefects', for australian exchange people and for the skul.. i think in the 4 yrs im was in QSS, we've created and orchestrated more than 10 dances?!.. hahas.. for npcc people, for the prefects, for the students, for teachers day.. etc etc! along with skits and all!.. hahas.. i miss those days.. where ill be excused or staying in skul late for doing all these.. i felt so important in secondary skul.. now in poly, i just feel like an insignificant person.. hahas.. nvm that, anyways, i miss QSS!!..

k, im gonna post some pics from the outing with nadia and yana the other day..

the 3 of us!!.. hahsa..

i look mega huge rite..!

STEP fierce only!.. hahas... actually realli very fierce!!.. meow!

another step fierce pic!.. haha

i lurve my reflection!.. hahaha

*peace out*

this is my avenue

[[ this is what i want to say. ]]

hmm.. yesterday went out to town!.. FINALLY!!.. im soo fucking bored at home.. hahas.. nothing to do also.. then u cant expect me to sit at home doing nothing rite.. hahahas
so anyways, hmm, supposed to meet yana, nadia, syaz and nurul at PS.. nad didnt wan to come.. hmm, i wonder y? lol.. k so then, hmm, change alredy sudd syaz say something popped up and thus cannot make it.. k so nvm.. so met nad and yana at PS.. nurul was sick so she couldnt go..
i met yana first cus she alredy reached.. and nad was on the way.. anyways, yana came early cus she wanted to buy some creative earpiece.. ok get this, erm, in the beginning the earpiece was priced at $35... so she decided on one and went to the counter.. then the very next minute, they changed the price to $49!!.. woah!.. wtf rite.. i think they made a mistake in the pricing thing.. but then they are a big company, so i dont think this kinda mistake is supposed to happen.. but in any case, i think they charged yana $39 instead.. haha.. gd rite.. hahas..

k, i was kinda hungry and kept complaining.. (k, that's just me.. when im hungry i complain..a hungry fat man is an angry fat man).. hahahs.. so then hmm, went to the basement got ourselves some pretzels then went to LJS.. i like LJS.. but i hate the cutlery there.. its plastic.. so hard to use.. hahas..
met nadia at the 7th floor.. hmm, the 330 timing was selling fast.. and only left first 3 rows.. so we decided on 420 movie.. so we had one more hr!.. fuck!.. nothing to do.. hahas.. so... went arcade..k, i like to play the arcade.. but i dont like to waste every single cent there.. just enuff will do.. haha.. so met a few poly frens.. raced one of them, and he beat the crap out of me la.. hahas.. then left.. walked around PS a lil bit.. on the way down saw felix and siew ming but then they didnt see me.. and i didnt wanna intrude.. so just saw them from the back.. hahas.. hmm, yana told me that she feels happy when she sees girls in purple skirt from QSS... and i totally agree with her.. i guess like, we've been there for 4 yrs.. and now away from it, when u see it, it just gives u that comforting feeling.. esp when thEy talk to u.. then u noe ur not totally forgotten or insignificant..its real comforting..
we went out of the mall and sat on the seats outside.. to take pics.. nad brought camera along.. but she not online, so i haven take, so cannot post.. hahas.. nvm, when i get them ill post.. and we were snapping and talking and laughing.. just like old times.. oh i miss them.. haha..
went back to the cinema.. hmm, CARS is around 121 minutes.. quite long for a cartoon movie rite.. hmm, k so, here it is.. CARS is an OK-OK movie.. not very entertaining.. lucky it was 7 bucks tix.. its quite draggy esp the first hr or so.. the only nice part for me was the ending.. it was quite touching.. its not as gd as the other pixar movies.. and i guess the kids in the cinema agrees with me.. they started to make noise and running all around.. well, u cant blame them.. hahas.. they're just being kids.. if u wanna watch it.. u might wanna think twice?.. or prolly go on a monday.. cheaper.. muhahaha

after the movie.. went home for dinner.. sori bern couldnt join ya for dinner.. ate dinner watched the england match... ok lal.. not bad.. they quite gd.. but they not gonna win.. ahaha..

so, i guess i wont be doing anything today.. nowhere to go.. everyone no mood to go also.. anyways, was watching Oprah just now.. well 2 diff episodes la.. one talking about teen problems.. and i can totally relate.. ive seen how my frens suffer in their sec skul life.. cutting themselves and stuff lidat.. its real sad.. and the other show was about losing weight..they were showing a weight lost regime anyone can follow.. like not eating after 8pm or something.. it realli works, with exercise that is.. but in 12 wks a few of them lost weight.. anyways, hmm, there was one realli inspirational story.. about a guy.. he used to be 730pounds!!! tts around 350 kg!!! k, so then his body was failing la.. and all.. so he exercised and all.. and he lost 500 pounds!!.. tts around 240 kg!!!!!.. WOAH!!.. cool rite.. anyways, losing weight will realli help in the heart and stuff.. sometimes, i can realli feel my heart quite pain, like getting weak and stuff?..run a little and ill feel tightness in the chest area.. somemore i kinda have HBP rite.. so i guess i needa do something!!.. hahash.. yeah, that's about all for today's show.. haha

btw, here are some songs of the wk from me.. go dw.. its nice..

TITLE ARTISTE

Time of Our Lives Toni Braxton and Il Divo (official world cup song)

If I Were You Hoobastank

Bestfriend Olivia fet. 50 Cent

*peace out*
live life as it is
take care of your own health

this is my avenue

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

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WOOHOO!!... now, finally im almost-everything-is-legal age!!.. 18!!.. sweet sweet 18!!.. hahas.. it kinda feels gd knowing that ur 18.. like almost everything is legal at this age.. ALMOST.. hahas.. but then, the only thing that is a setback is that u noe ur old.. well, I sure do know im old.. hahas..

k, so what happened over the weekend.. hahas..

saturday 10/6/06

went out with syaz, jeremy, zana, xristina and bernard.. went shopping with them.. well, actually the girls went shopping.. ok, from guy to guy.. if u haven experienced going shopping with girls.. DONT!!.. you wont like it.. its like a war zone.. hahahahs.. and the casualties are us men!.. they'll go into EVERY shop on EVERY floor of the mall!.. its realli a scary thing.. usually, guys, when we go shopping or wad, its like think, go in, buy.. that's the 3 steps.. but ok, i have to admit, i have had once, or twice, a long shopping trip.. esp when i went to buy my shoe.. hahas.. well, its a shoe.. i have to make sure its nice.. but if its clothes or wad.. i usually just look in the shop and see a while.. and buy.. haahas.. in any case, don wori girls, its a "nice" experience.. hahahas.. lol, but then seriously, girls (syaz and xristina! esp!) call me 3 hrs after ur done!!!.. hahas.. i got home to an aching body and leg.. wad an experience!... hahas.. anyways, i was hmm the centre of attention for the whole day.. everything was directed to me and the whole nine yards of me!.. and yes, people, jeremy is SIZE-IST!!.. he hates fat people!.. he admitted.. but then in a contradictory way he says "he loves taufiq".. haha.. well, i dont realli blame him.. who doesnt? WAHAHAHSA.. AHEM!.. hahas..
ok so, hmm, back to the hang-out on saturday.. yana couldnt make it.. her assignment's up to her neck.. we met early, to go for lunch at cahaya restaurant.. i was super duper hungry.. i had my normal mushroom chicken rice and fried spicy carrot cake.. and we ordered side fried char kueh.. hahas. yum yum.. and for dinner, we went to LJS.. hahas.. had chicken wrap.. ma favourite!.. bfore dinner went to take neoprints, first with zana.. hahas..oh ya, and on the way home, i saw yulian!.. hahas.. her bdae is on 10/6, one day bfore mine!!.. hahas.. then we were quite surprised!.. then HI-5ed her.. and she say, now ill alwaez be one day younger than her!. haha.. happy bdae to u, yulian!..=))
at home, was online till late.. soccer and all.. and its holiday and its my bdae.. y would i slp rite.. hahas.. so then around 12 am was conferencing with bern, jer, zee and xriss on the phone.. then, thEy were very innovative and creative.. they sang me the bdae song on the phone.. it was like an impromptu choir on the phone.. real sweet.. thnx yall.. k, so tts about it for saturday..

sunday 11/06/06

yesh!.. THE day.. hahahas.. finally 18 is the number.. hahahas.. so hmm, the morning i was rather moody.. hahas.. cus the atmosphere at home didnt realli feel birthday-ish... i mean, its 18.. its a huge step into young adulthood!.. and i gOt pissed off quite easily tt morning..then in the afternoon, my mom started cooking a whole lot of food and stuff.. and i realised ok, this will turn out ok.. so im sori mom!!.. love ya..i guess.. hahas... so anyways, syaz called me to hang at starbucks with a few frens.. hmm, to celebrate i guess..nth much.. so, she called a few people, jeremy had plans with his frens and he popped for a while.. so, there was zee, bernard, xristina, syahir (he came from taka after an event there), ke wei and fionna (she came from the airport-send her mom off)... yana couldnt make it, her assignments were due the same day.. and nas had to study, her tests coming soon.. haha.. all the best nas.. so then met at the starbucks paragon.. haha.. such a posh place to meet.. it was raining and all, so i appreciated those who came even though it was raining.. hahas.. so sat down with a caramel frappucino and bagel and caught up with frens!!!.. tts most impt, esp with fionna and ke wei.. ke wei, u look better with a lil more weight now.. hahas.. stay this way.. hahas..and also with syahir.. syahir looked as smart as alwaez in his uniform.. and we chat a lil.. then bern and xristina went to the "toilet".. and came back with chocolate cake.. wad a coincidence!.. hahsa..so then hmm, i got real embarrased cus they were singing in the middle of paragon for goodness sakes.. oh, and lay hui walked pass recognised us and gave me a great big birthday hug!.. hahas.. i missed that girl!.. hahas.. its been long.. and she looked more prettier now seh.. hahas.. anyways, she was on diet? and didnt stay for cake.. hahas.. anyways, take care lay hui! =)
had the cake.. then we walked.. took the bus to PS.. i love having bernard around!.. WE DONT HAVE TO WALK.. hahahas.. went to ps actually to play pool, but then there was a waiting list for 2 hrs wait!.. no thnx.. so went to play arcade at the zone x or sometink.. played a few games and headed to neoprint shop..first neoprint with fionna and ke wei!.. hahas.. cool.. birthday neoprint.. im a cam whorer.. wahahas.. so are my frens.. haha.. we had to avoid any shops so the girls wont have the urge to shop.. haha.. and they didnt!.. so thnx for tt!.. hahas.. now only waiting for syaz to send me the pics!.. haha..and she's not online.. i slpt yst after failing to use the internet cus something was wrong with the connection..
k back to the ranting.. went home to my aunt's and family.. and ate another cake.. pizzas and more rice.. hahas.. ooohh i lovve... hahahas... yay more cake.. wahahas

so on the whole, this was the best birthday weekend ive had.. i guess cus its the only birthday where i had 2 cakes?.. my birthday alweaz falls during the holidays.. tts y!!!.. but i like this yr.. and my sis got me a billabong pencil case ive been wanting.. and got some cash.. hahas.. cool.. not so bad...

ill post some pics when i get them.. hahas.. k, till then.. bye yall.. take care.. and thnx to those who sent me greetings... =))

*peace out*

Artist: High School Musical Song: What I've Been Looking For
Album: High School Musical

Ryan:
It's hard to believe
That I couldn't see

Together:
You were always there beside me
Thought I was alone
With no one to hold
But you were always right beside me

Sharpay:
This feelings like no other

Together:
I want you to know
I've never had someone that knows me like you do
the way you do
I've never had somone as good for me as you
no one like you so lonely before i finally found
what i've been looking for

Sharpay:
So good to be seen
So good to be heard

Together:
Don't have to say a word

Ryan:
For so long I was lost
So good to be found

Together:
I'm loving having you around

Ryan:
This feeling's like no other

Together:
I want you to know
I've never had someone that knows me like you do
The way you do
I've never had someone as good for me as you
No one like you
So lonely before, I finally found what
I've ben looking for

Together:
Doo Doo DooDooDoo
Doo DooDooDo Do

Woa-ah-ah-oh

i love this song!.. haha.. i love the lyrics actually from high school musical..hehe..enjoy!

this is my avenue

Friday, June 09, 2006

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yes! finally the agony of studying and going thru notes and going to skul early just to do some last minute revisions is over!... in short, my common test is over!!.. now, can enjoy world cup, enjoy life and everything life has to offer.. hahahas.. yesterday's TP paper was seriously MAJORLY fucked man.. i left blanks all over the paper.. and i kept drawing waveforms... wtf sia.. high chance of failing.. wont be surprised..even if i passed, wont make it above 65 la.. haha..

so anyways, hmm, cant believe im getting older soon... older means more matured? or more serious? but i dont wanna be tt.. i guess, tts just not me?.. ive been like this since i was in primary skul.. like this means like crazy, fun, not-so-serious and loud person.. ok, mayb i was a lil more quiet then, but in any case, im still the same person.. this change when u get older..firstly is u feel way older.. when u look at ur age, u see such a big number.. hahas.. and sometimes that scares me.. during the transition from secondary skul to poly... i was very sad.. cus leaving secondary skul means, its the end of tt adolescent period.. now ur a young adult... then people in poly is different from my secondary skul.. people from my secondary skul will alwaez say hi without fail.. and it seems like everyone knew everyone else.. but in an 15000 people environment, i cant expect much lar.. haha.

but then, on the other hand, there are a few gd things being older... ur legal to do MOST stuff.. legal to buy cigarrettes, liquor, watch certain stuff?, enter most clubs.. HAHAS.. i tink itll be fun for certain reasons.. HAHAS.. ;)
*oh btw, her (someone else's) bdae is one day bfore mine.. wad a coincidence.. but its so cool!... hahas..

i bet this holidays will be REALLI REALLI boring...!! arrggghhh.. there's nothing to do.. so bored... but then i tink ill be going or more like visiting the QSS band camp on the 21-23th june.. dont think ill be finding a job.. fuck it la...

k, stay happy yall.. hahas...

*peace out*

this is my avenue

[[ this is what i want to say. ]]

this is my avenue

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

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hmm, isit true that love nv dies? im realli not sure about this lovey-dovey shit now... seriously, i dont even realli care much now..

so some events that i knew/know/happened/going to happen etc etc:

1) mariah carey insured her legs for US$1 Billion

2) today's, 7/6/06 DEL paper, just SUCKED.. felt i got fucked up by the paper!

3) feelings? who need them?! bitch away..

4) tmr's TP test, i dont know a fuck and im still online.. wad a bummer..

5) havent been going out, cus now CT period.. so, sori to all..

6) yesterday, 6/6/06, The Omen opened in the cinema's.. i wan go watch

7) a bus driver from hell fucked all the passengers by driving like an old lady! how i wish he'd get fucked by a bus on the way home..

8) im gonna be a yr older in 4 days time.. wad a bummer!.. feel and look old..crap..

9) i reeaalli wanna go kbox and sing my fucking heart out.. a gd burst of vocal outrage can realli be therapeutic..

10) found a realli great country love song yall should know about.. "Love will alwaez win"- Garth Brooks and Trisha Yearwood

so, tts all the things in my mind i just wanna say out... anything i missed out sori but cant blame me..

anyways, tmr is TP.. fuck.. fuck.. fuck.. fucking crappy holy shit TP..

yeah, this is just a shout out to all u fuckers out there.. ok, me, taufiq, here, is NOT a religionist or a racist person wad-so-ever.. i try to NOT discuss these topics because these are the kinda topics that can make the world go round.. people can kill cause of religion and all.. im mostly a calm person... i HOPE.. but then let me say this... if u wanna go around critising MY fucking race and religion.. its FINE with me, as long as u noe ur limits, or best, do it behind my back... BUT, let me say this again, BUT, if u wanna talk about my religion or race and bad mouth it in front of people then i think uve got a fucking prob..ur a free thinker? so just be tt and shut the fuck up.. i mean, ok, i noe im not the most holy or religion-ist person u can find.. but then when u start to blabber ur mouth and say things like fuck the malays and fuck MY God into my face.. i think that's a little too far u son of a bitch mother fucker... seriously, i may sound hahahah or hehehe.. but i swear i dont, the very least appreciate u saying that.. (see how im using first and second party, tts cus im actually refering to someone) and also saying that if ever given a choice, islam will nv be ur religion of choice as u put it..to tell u the truth, i DONT give a fuck.. at least we'll have one less person to burn in hell.. so, if u think free thinking or wadever fucking thing u believe in is sooo fucking superior, then gd for u.. im not the very least interested in knowing anything about u or ur believes.. just that, at least, show some respect to other people's religion and dont shoot ur mouth without thinking.. some people dont appreciate that you know.. and u wouldnt wanna start some racial thing in singapore.. ull just be arrested and put behind bars.. so, one phrase of advice, THINK BFORE U SPEAK, u son of a bitch mother fucking asshole who have got nothing better to do than poke his fucked up nose into topics that small dick-ed kids shouldnt be discussing about and leave this kinda topics to the older kids to talk and not start pointing ur finger where it doesnt belong u-mum-still-cleaning-his-ass-kid!

k back to blogging..now there is one thing i stand by.. things change as time goes by.. this is my philosophy now.. if u disagree, think back.. time realli changes ppl, changes feelings and changes how we act..sometimes, the longer u know someone, the harder it is to un-feel for that person... but then sometimes i guess the hurt caused is much greater.. more sadness, more pain and suffering.. people dont know but this is just how it is.. among the other things.. aiyah, i guess just let time take its course.. whether 2 people are meant to be together depends on god...

there is one song lyrics that i realli feel people should be seeing more often.. walkaway from kelly clarkson.. its like if u dont like it, u can walk away... bitch!..

Walk Away Kelly Clarkson

You've got your mother and your brother
Every other undercover
Tellin' you what to say
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is
That it's cupid, baby
Lovin' you has made me this way
So before you point your finger
Get your hands off of my trigger
Oh yeah
You need to know this situation's getting old
And now the more you talk
The less I can say, oh
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away
I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed?
I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me
I'm all alone
So, before you start defendin'
Baby, stop all your pretendin'
I know you know I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today
Hey
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away
I wanna love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I wanna man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?
'Cause if you don't then just leave
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
If you don't have the answer
Walk away
Just walk away
Then just leave
Yeah yeah
Walk away
Walk away
Walk away

till i write again.. enjoy, fuckers..

*peace out*
hating is loving

this is my avenue

Sunday, June 04, 2006

[[ this is what i want to say. ]]

hmm, it seems my class is not realli effected by the stress of the exams.. hahas.. we're still having fun, playing com games at home, not studying, not coming for lectures and stuff lidat.. wahahas...but then sometimes if they nv study also later last minute all As one.. those baskets.. hahsa..

anyways, in the SPIRIT of the X-Men 3: The Last Stand.. we have given each of us a character.. hahas... k, here i go..

karthig mystique

ismail tinman/colossous

raj beast/ furball!

wei lung shadowcat/ pussy!

shu chuan leech

siyan jean grey

jing yi arc light

lixin storm

amri nightcrawler

eugene gambit

JB iceman

JY spike

ming nyat Prof. Xavier

aung wolverine

soon keng rogue

siong yong angel

siqi cyclops

shah toad

taufiq juggernaut/ dickhead!

so, tts the list of super mutants in 2A2 class.. hahas..

took our FOOP test yesterday... FOOP is a serious FUCKED up module la!.. wtf.. its sooo stupid sia.. and its fucking difficult la the paper... i didnt noe how to do quite alot.. then i just anyhow did the paper.. putting "" and ( ) everywhere and anywhere... wtf... scared i sure fail sia.. but then i guess im quite confident for the ACDA paper on monday.. cus i tink i understand and its more like physics.. and i like physics!. hahas..so hopefully this time round can get at least one A for a core module.. hahas.. all the best to those having the common test this coming wk!.. and all the best to me!!. wahahas..

k, anyways, hmm, there is this like street stall? that occasionally comes to ngee ann... esp outside our engineering co-op.. then this time there was one stall selling erm, realli cute looking voodoo dolls!.. haha.. they were there for almost a wk.. but then usualy we just walk past... and stop for a while.. but then the urge to buy was realli strong yesterday.. shahahs!.. somemore last day lei!.. if nv buy sure regret sia!.. hahas.. so borrowed 10 bucks from lung.. thnx lung! then actually i wanted like demon guard series!... but then by the time lung withdraw money, siyan alredy bought the last pair!.. walau.. haha.. tt series realli very nice.. black+red and red+black pair.. realli very cute sia.. damn.. too late.. but nvm la.. i bought 2.. btw, 2 was for $9.90.. so i bought one red devil/demon and an angel/cupid.. so cute... hahas.. the devil is me duh.. obviously.. so hmm, the angel/cupid... lung oso bought two, and i asked him if one was for any particular fren? hahahas.. and he just smiled and laugh.. siao.. walau.. itll be nice to give her one.. ahahahahas.. :p kkk, ill post the cute dolls pics at the end.. hahas...

hmm,klal.. i guess im ending here.. enjoy the pics, and happy reading!.. hahas..

little devil/demon + angel/cupid... ("V")

cute right!!.. hahas... together...so sweet..

my little devil...

you're my little angle/cupid... =)

*peace out*

love is something that cannot be felt overnight..

falling in love takes time..

the longer it is, the harder itll be to fall out of it..

treasure the person you love..

cause no one will live forever..

tomorrow might just be their day...