hmm, hi yall..
ok, so i was watching an episode on Oprah, the Lady O herself was with guest stars Jada Pinkett Smith, Venus and Serena Williams... ok, so , hmm, it was about teenage problems.. everything i know that teenagers were going thru was brought up..so then they were discussing about self mutalation in teenagers.. hmm, i guess ive experience this first hand with my frens unfortunately..ive seen the pain and suffering they been thru.. i guess these people are just weak.. because, they only manage to put up a brave front, cutting themselves, in an effort to "solve" their problems.. all the problems will magically "go away" after cutting themselves up.. it doesnt make sense.. i think these people are not strong enuff emotionally to take control of that outburst of sadness or pure emotional distress that is suddenly taking over.. and thus when they cut themselves up, they are not realli there.. their minds is not actually there.. they actually feel the pain, but they keep thinking to themselves that the pain emotionally is more than the physical pain..its all a deceit.. they are only lying to themselves..

and other point they touched on was hmm, mean kids in school or mean people.. k, so this was the theory that the doctor said.. people are mean or treat other people badly because they have insecurities about themselves.. and they might not know it, but somewhere inside, they are feeling insecure about their status and stuff that they have to resort to lowering the self esteem of other people, JUST to raise theirs..and they do this by being mean and stuff like that..moreover, the doctor added that IF the mean person who disses everyone or is mean or nasty or wad is not insecure about themselves, why do they have to act like that.. act in a way that lower other people's self esteem and pride.. i was watching the show closely and i feel its true.. i mean wad she was talking about makes sense!.. makes perfect sense!.. hahas..so, i guess, now, when people diss me or say things about me.. itll just fall on deaf ears.. hahas.. cus now i know that, when they do that, they're just insecure about themselves.. haha... yeahs.. this might just work!.. hahas..

anyways, today, met up with irya, nana, sakina and shaniz.. they were doing some dance.. preparing for some dance.. and irya called me to sit in to one of the sessions.. hahas.. its ok i guess.. i reali realli miss doing dances!!.. haha.. working with irya and nana to create dances for prefects', for australian exchange people and for the skul.. i think in the 4 yrs im was in QSS, we've created and orchestrated more than 10 dances?!.. hahas.. for npcc people, for the prefects, for the students, for teachers day.. etc etc! along with skits and all!.. hahas.. i miss those days.. where ill be excused or staying in skul late for doing all these.. i felt so important in secondary skul.. now in poly, i just feel like an insignificant person.. hahas.. nvm that, anyways, i miss QSS!!..

k, im gonna post some pics from the outing with nadia and yana the other day..

the 3 of us!!.. hahsa..

i look mega huge rite..!

STEP fierce only!.. hahas... actually realli very fierce!!.. meow!

another step fierce pic!.. haha

i lurve my reflection!.. hahaha

*peace out*