hmm.. was reading syaz's blog just now.. the latest post..
it makes sense.. alot of it does.. y haven i been calling my frens?? cus im worried that i call at the wrong time.. moreover, my frens have their own commitments.. yana, nas to skul.. and syaz to her bf... and my other frens.. just dont go out.. that's the problem.. im not saying that they are selfish to have commitments... i understand.. but like sometimes, when im happy or wadever and people are having problems in skul or wadever, i dont think itll be nice for me to "share" my joy at that point of time..
i dont realli talk to a few of my frens nowadays.. and i feel guilty.. cus they've been my best fren since sec 1.. its just that i feel i feel that i screwed my chances of rekindling our frenship..
wad im trying to say is that.. even though i dont call u, i dont sms u, or i dont chat with u online.. it doesnt mean that ive forgotten about u.. or that im angry with u.. its just that i, like u, is waiting for u to call or sms me.. so both ways, we feel like the other person is ignoring the other one.. u get it?
even if im angry.. i will find the reasons deep inside and try to understand the situation and i wont hold the grudge for long.. u all know me.. i hope.......


anw, another gd point that was in syaz's blog was about relationship.. its like no matter who my fren is.. or where im reading about.. if its about relationship.. there is alwaez that commitment problem and that over sensitive and protective problem.. i dont understand y someone can get overly jealous? or overprotective of their partner.. to the extent of hurting them.. esp when it comes to frens..
i alwaez have this stand.. that if ever id get in a relationship.. i must not let that get in the way of my relationship with my frens.. firstly, u know ur frens longer.. and sometimes, ur frens know everything about you.. they know u inside out.. and i tink their status in ur bks should be higher.. that is just how i feel.. mayb u all might think its easy for me to say like this.. and think that i will do the opposite... but i reckon.. my frens are too important..u may know that person for a long time and love that person alot.. but u know ur frens LONGER and loved ur frens MORE...
just think about it..

if u think about it.. ur frens will bring u anger and sadness sometimes.. but most of the time, the only thing u have with ur frens is fun and happiness.. its different.. even more different than ur relationship with ur siblings.. like for me, i dont talk to my siblings.. so i feel closer to my frens than my sisters.. tts y..

anw, different people different perspective...


also, syaz wrote about how she hates changes.. yeah, i know u do girl.. i hate changes more than u.. the transition i hate to make from sec 2 to sec 3 was realli sad and emotional.. andthe one from sec 4 to out of skul poly is worst.. honestly, i cried during prom.. i was sad.. sad cause i thought i wont be seeing my frens as much as i did.. and its true.. prom was the worst day i had to go thru.. i didnt want sec skul to end.. i didnt want to see LESS of my frens... as i was shaking hands with the teachers and my frens i slowly started to tear up..until i couldnt hold back and i cried.. like a baby.. i was sad.. it was like losing my family.. my family of 4 yrs.. the teachers and the frens... who were so important in moulding me.. my heart sank that nite.. and thinking of it makes me wanna cry all over again.. cus i can recall exactly wad happened.. to my sec skul frens reading this.. i realli and honestly miss u guys.. =(

and now, next sem, we're changing class!.. i hate this.. not only wont i see the fun people i had in my class.. i had to make new frens.. that sucks.. y cant poly just let us stick with our own class.. or separate us earlier.. when we werent so attached and close!.. i hate this.. its sad to know that next sem when i come to skul i wont be seeing my classmates, but ill be seeing unknown people.. i hate it.. i hate reality.. that's y i find comfort in dream.. in dream where my world is perfectly how i want it to be..

everytime i listen to songs about frens and stuff, im reminded of u guys.. the people who were more to me than my frens.. you were like my family.. a family i nv had.. but a family ill alwaez treasure in my heart...

YOU'VE GOT A FRIEND
[CAROLE KING]

When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

If the sky above you
Grows dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind begins to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you'll hear me knocking at your door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there

Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

this song's for u guys..
till i post again.. that's for today.. bye.. take care all..

*peace out*